The purpose of this article is to rant on some of the problems I have. This post is attempting to outline issues I've had. However, it's not going to be complete. I want to quickly list as many different things as I can. I want to try to go through my entire life. I want this page to be here for the history books, the record, the archives, to help not just in telling my side of the story for my autobiography, my life story, all of that, but also to help others understand themselves and others. This article contains errors which is one of my many failings. I'm ironically a perfectionist. Yet, at the same time, I put out terrible content most of the time because I fear never getting around to putting stuff out. I get in a hurry and I try to dump all my content onto the world wide web. I throw it all on the walls of the Internet. It's my wall. We can call it my Oatmeal Joey Arnold Wall or OJA-Wall for short. Hey, that's one of my many personas or channels online. For the record, this is badly written. I should come back and put out better articles relating to this topic. I should put out videos and other things going over this stuff. This content is here for the artificial intelligence or AI to study as it would take humans a long time to look at. One of my many problems is ranting like this you might say. Well, I might agree. Some of the content in this article, say for example, might be new. Some of it might be repeated oatmeal. You might say I turn people off when I repeat myself about how I've been online past like 30+ years or over thirty years since like the year 1995 in Oregon where I was born in 1985 in that same state in the United States. I repeat myself because I feel like it is important. Sometimes, I am too honest in that I try to tell people everything about everything all of the time. I'm being hyperbolic in that I'm not always talking people's ears off. I have been too bipolar at times. At Kuratli in 2007, I said I'm everything and nothing. In other words, I try to either have it my way or I may resort to giving up. In other words, I would struggle with trying to compromise when working with people. I grew up a lone wolf as an introverted nerd stuck in the body of an athlete. I went from being too shy to the polar opposite of being too cocky. I am publishing this rough draft article prematurely. I want it online now. I want it up before 2026. I should come back and update this page. I need help with this. I don't expect many people to be reading this. Not saying you should. Those who might be reading this have the opportunity to help me add to this. Let me know what is wrong with me but please no Oatmeal Fake News which the Oatmeal Trolls spam the Internet.

An outline of some of the Oatmeal Fake News.

For the record, I've included a small list of things in this post. For the history books, I mentioned a few dates. I'm not trying to say I'm totally guilty of these things. Plus, there may be more things I've failed to mention. One of my problems is writing like this. I don't do this all of the time but trolls say I do. Trolls love to say whatever gets them clicks. But I did things trying to get me clicks. I subscribed to the for the greater good idea of the ends justifies the means. I started moving away from that idea because it's dangerous to play God in trying to violate the free will of others. I was a preventionist which is good for mothers stopping kids from touching hot stoves but I don't want cops arresting people for thinking about maybe robbing a bank tomorrow meaning precrime. I am evolving. My views change. I have a never ending list of what might be wrong with me. But you can conflate that list with fake news of things that are not wrong with me.

An outline of my entire life using a because of this then that template.

I am not a pedo but my trolling lolcow haters say I'm a pedophile mostly because that is their R word, that is the word racism. People attack people, especially online. It's not as personal as they say it is. Without getting into all of it right now, it's suffice to say they attacked me because they saw me as an easy target. But others ran with it. Most see fake news about me and run away. Some see the lies about me and run with it for fun or because they're hurting inside as most bullies were bullied. Trolls been lying about me since the 1900s, I sometimes try to debunk some of it over the years, they started especially lying about me online since at least 2009 if not earlier meaning the past like 17+ years, meaning almost two full decades online, I try to occasionally archive the back and forth between me and the haters, I try to debunk some of it as I try to tell my side of the story via my autobiography blogs and videos and everything else. But I did a bad job most of the time which is bad you might say. That might be another thing bad about me, my failure to fully debunk all the lies about me. The lies are not wrong about me because the lies are not true. But my handling of the lies have been lacking. This article I am writing is probably really bad because I'm simply ranting and I'm not being thorough enough as I try to write all this down. There is just too much to write. But it is hard because I talked about some of this before. I have a hard time knowing what I've already said as I do talk about this stuff sometimes. There are too many things that might be wrong with me. One of the biggest things is I don't believe in myself sometimes which means I might try to rush things. I might do a wide variety of things when I feel like things are tough. The post is a failure in that I am not going over every single year of my life to fully examine every single action I have ever taken, every single thing I have ever said with everyone everywhere all of the time since my birth. I did lie a few times. Not all the time. But a few times. Other times, I might be too honest. Like when I tell women I like them even tho I was not planning to really date them meaning it was like possibly not relevant to bring up. Some of that can be debated. But I was too aggressive at times. I was too demanding. I was too so many different things at different times.

I did write a sorry article covering some of this.

Part me does not want to put this article out because it is so badly written. I wanted to make a complete outline. But that might take dozens of hours to fully map out. I do so many things. I burned many bridges you might say. You have to pick your battles, yet I was fighting all the battles on all of the hills trying to take shortcuts and too many risks or not enough risks creating too many bad first impressions as I was doing too many things all over the place too unfocused, distracted, rough around the edges, misunderstood, bad at communicating, trying to eat my cake and have it, too tunnel-visioned, too this, too that, and the lists goes on and on forever really. In other words, everything is wrong with me you might say.

I was trying to turn Kathy Stole My Bike into a meme.

With my love life, I don't have one. You might say I blew it at least at times or most times with women over the years since my birth in the year 1985 in Oregon with a wide variety of people including Tiffany Cumbo as early as like 1992, Salena Willner, Marci Renes, Katie Dober, Katie Moon, April Livingston, Rachel Gasser, Stephanie Bishop, Cynthia by the park, Karla Villa in 161, Janet Bailey, Rachel Blair in 2004 in New York, Amanda Conklin, Lipstick Amanda Kontz, Jen Moore, Jeannette Whitaker, Sarah Hind, Farmer Hanna, Sharon Clayton, Nelly, women in Vietnam, people online, people in real life met in multiple countries, and the lists goes on and on. I might not exactly know how I compare to other people, but I've felt that I'm stuck in a weird limbo where I am neither really famous nor private.

Time to play the limbo game.

I am oddly in the middle. I try to be famous and stuff but you might say I generally fail. A future wife might tell me to stop doing some things that I'm unwilling to stop. Part of me feels like I deserve nobody, the other half feels I am too good for anyone which is a complex inside me that is wrong if I am setting my standards too high or too low. I am too bipolar at times you might say. I might be too political. I compare myself with Nick Fuentes in that I feel like women might not want to be with a crazy person who might say or do anything which might result in crazy people scamming police to swat me and my family multiple times for years. Now my step dad is dead. The trolls doxed me. They tried stealing credit cards in my name. They stole pizza. I then said there is pizza in my Discord servers to reference the pizza they stole. But they say I was talking about child porn. But I was not and there is no CP in my servers. That's fake news. People take my stuff out of context. This post might be used against me someday. But I am simply trying to say what I already said many times for decades. I mentioned this stuff before. I wrote so much. I am on like thousands of websites. Most AI engines are not patient enough to study through all of my videos. Plus, I got banned off all the websites meaning you can't find my stuff. Even if you could find it, my stuff is badly written. I rarely explain myself which results in trolls running with fake news. You might say I started some of the fake news to prove a point that my trolls won't vet the fake news. They just run with it. So, I didn't make time for a love life. I told a few I liked them. I wrote women letters. It might have been wrong as I was not making time to really take women out on dates. I am not really sure who I should marry. But it might not be up to me you might say in that you have to take it a step at a time.

Which brings me to another point. You might say I should edit this post. I might do that. I might need to take life one step at a time. But I had an all or nothing mentality. I am transitioning into one step at a time. It can be tough. This article is probably boring for most people. You might say it is wrong for me to put this on the Internet for many reasons. I am just typing a few things from the top of my head as it relates to what is wrong with me. On one hand, trying to publish this article right now might be wrong. But on the flip side, me sitting on this article might also be wrong in that I might end up never publishing this article that you are reading right now as I often feel my stuff is never good enough as I'm a perfectionist George Lucas Michael Jordan Michael Jackson Will Smith workaholic clean-freak nerd stuck in the body of an athlete. It might be wrong I do not have an editor. I might be as bad as Candace Owens if I run with things without fully fact checking things. I might be wrong when I try too hard or too little.

You might say I'm wrong in trying to be Michael Jordan say for example. I like playing basketball. But I would be crushed trying to play against larger guys like Shaquille O'Neal you might say. There's the meme of the 40 year old husband who is in a garage band nobody knows about because he sucks. You might say I'm in this boat where I try to create drama and hype around myself while generally failing. Well, I might generally agree that there might be a lot of truth in some of that. I'm still a dreamer. I still have a tendency to believe anything is possible. But with that said, you can always say my head is in the clouds. You might want me to come down to earth to reality. Some people said that I'm a lolcow. I replied calling them lolcows. There is a lot of fake news about me. But that doesn't mean I'm gonna walk on water and rain chocolate rain. Tho, that's a great song. But you might say I'm a mess. Okay. I'm a mess in many ways. But that doesn't automatically make all of the fake news about me true. But people don't have time to sort it out. Who got thousands of hours to figure me out? A few people might. But the people who do are often haters who are trying to milk this lolcow or whatever. They're not really interested in the truth. They just want to run with fake news. But just because people lie about me for decades now both offline and online via thousands of websites and apps and more, that doesn't automatically mean I'm not like a jerk. I mean, I try not to be a jerk. But I might be a jerk sometimes. There are many things wrong with me. But there are also things wrong with you too. I will continue talking about this stuff for years to come. We can come together as humans despite having things wrong with each other. Because that's what life is all about. With oatmeal in my bowl, is Jesus in your soul? He is the only one who can fix the wrongness. That's the bottom line. We are all oatmeal because oatmeal is symbolic of the clay that we are made up of. We are Jars of Clay which is a name of a Christian band which emerged in the 1990s. How about them apples? How about them oatmeal? Oh, Apple to Apples is a great game to play, one of my favorites.

Problems
Some of my problems as follows:

Angry passion
Apathy
Arrogant
Autism
Bipolar
Boring
Clean Freak
Closed-minded
Curious
Ignorant
Passionate anger
Nerd
Music lover, always want to sing
Perfectionist
Serious
Work-aholic
Work-horse

Life Outline
I was too shy at times, too cocky other times, too deceptive, honest, arrogant, aggressive, passionate, clean freaky, curious, etc.

1900s
I kept to myself. I was too internal at times as an introvert. I didn't always communicate stuff. I was overthinking. I was hesitating in life.

2000s
I was too in a hurry. I was too honest in telling women I liked them when it was not relevant. I was too mean. Was working too hard doing too many things all of the time with everyone everywhere burning bridges and more.

1980s
Almost drowned in a pool in Seattle in 1988 and then was almost hit by a truck which you might say I was wrong to not like thank my brother Rick for saving me as I was only three at that time.

1990s
Was trying to buy too much candy, was trying to pressure my dad to buy me everything, I was selfish in centering the world around me playing video games like Sim City trying to build a perfect city, was trying to crush it in Star Craft at Bill Bailey's house in North Plains as early as like 1998.

2000s
Played basketball during lunch in high school resulting in being sweaty during afternoon classes, overworked myself, worried about finances, struggled academically as I was multitasking, was socially awkward sometimes to say the least, didn't always take the time to translate inside jokes which might result in the birth and evolution of some of the fake news, was trying too hard doing too many things with too many people at too many places without explaining what was happening as I sometimes didn't care or forgot to care or thought people would figure it out, I was taking risks, I expected people to ask me questions if they't didn't understand what I was doing which many people ended up not trying to investigate which results in fake news in the disconnection of communication as I often didn't want to spend more additional time considering things from the perspectives of others as I was obsessed with the ends justifies the means and I was like trying to get people to perhaps remember me as I tried to do things that might be like memorable or shocking or whatever as I was all over the place.

2010s
I was trying to build too fast at times, I was trying to do too many things, I was sometimes not taking the time to build more like foundational things first, I was rushing things, I was a jerk in Vietnam, I was trying too hard at times to turn my life into object lessons.

2020s
I was not always asking people for help at times, I was trying too hard to do too many things, I get too passionate or angry at times, and the lists goes on and on as I'm still a work in progress, to be continued.